This World Has Nothing For Me

Multi-purpose SAY IT HERE post. Questions, comments, critques, plottings? Have at it! All considerations for privacy are taken, all requests for kindness are done.

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...that was the sound of what's left of my brain exploding.

Seriously, guys. The forbidden is forbidden for a reason. It's not gonna cuddle up to you. You're not safe just because he says so. That's just not the way things work.

But it's not like I don't understand the appeal.

Real life isn't a fairy tale. But that doesn't mean it can't have a happy ending -- just, running away won't help anything, you know? Though I can really, really, really understand that appeal.

Home, home again. Or at least -- in La Guardia. Thanksgiving was delicious. Just three more weeks to finals, and then winter break! Time is going craaaaaazy fast!

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It was like traveling with a figity five year old with a hormone infusion, thanks for asking.

Well, we're here. Dean's all squared away in the guest room, and he's charmed my mom halfway out of her mind already. Greg's a little stand-offish, but that's no surprise.

Joey seems like he's grown a foot since this summer. I had to reteach him my name, which sucked, but he loved the present I brought him, which is a plus.

And Grandma's here! So, that's really good!

And now we get back to your regularly scheduled almost-panic-I HAVE A GOD OVER-holiday programming.

Dean, my mom said it was cool. Pack yer bags, son, you're goin' to Ohio!

( Screened from mortals, education-related gods, and... pretty much anybody save angels...and Zel )

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Paper due Monday, test Tuesday, Wednesday is sweet sweet freedom. Or a rush to La Guardia. Whatever. Mom's been talking me even night about it. We're having it at our house this year, and all of Greg's family is coming, and I think that my grandma's coming up from Florida too and it will be just lovely.

As long as I don't talk about God. Or the kids in Brooklyn. Or my plans for the future. Or College. Or Alex. Or Remy. Or Raum or -- anything. I can't talk about anything.

At least there's the slightest chance that I might pass A&P. That'll be something. And the food -- the food will be awesome. Especially if my grandma comes up. She makes the best stuffing.

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( One More Text to Alex )

The light today is so glorious. I'd forgotten, almost, how beautiful fall could be. It's been so gray out lately, with so much rain! I've hardly been able to get in the traditional leaf fight.

Carlie? Jason? Ashley? The soccer field at 3? Hot chocolate after -- loser buys!

Thanks for the great turn out on the blood drive, everyone. It was really great to see everyone coming together to help out.

I just don't understand why anyone would do something like this. And then - the news is full with burned tobacoo fields and then that building had big tobacco offices -- c'mon, guys, I know that smoking is bad for you and everything, but this is really, really the wrong way to make a point. If that is even what this is.

A bunch of us are going to get together and play tonight. We're gonna shift to worship around 8 and have time for prayer around 9. I know that this is a really scary time to be alive right now - that's why we have to hold on to what matters most. Let's cast our cares on the One who cares. I hope to see you all there.

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The paper really did get pushed back. I don't know why I'm surprised. I mean... I know he's a god. But. He's just able to - do something like this? So casually? It's kind of... I don't know... it's scary, but it's... I don't know.

...

...Screw the paper. I'm organizing an emergency blood drive. Call my cell if you're interested in donating -- come on, people, they're going to need all the extra help they can get. I'm getting buses to meet us at the student center in two hours.

There's an improntu prayer meeting going on in the soccer field, I passed it on my way. Go pray for the families and the rescue workers.

( Panicked Phone Call to John Thomas )

HOW IS THERE A PAPER DUE TOMORROW? HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS??

I'm doomed.

I had the weirdest dream last night... I only remember bits and pieces of it but it was so hot real weird. I ended up sleeping in way too late and had to run around like a crazy woman this afternoon to get everything done.

It's that time again, that lovely lovely time of schedules. Fortunately, all of my classes are pretty much decided for me, I don't think I could fit anymore into this double-major if I tried. I'm just hoping that I pass A&P, because I really, really do not want to have to stay in school another year to take it again next fall. I just need to figure out if there's a way that I can take this anth course next year, since I really don't feel like doing a Winterterm. I have to use that time to start researching missions organizations.

The holiday craziness is already starting. I must've heard from my mom three times yesterday. She wants me to spend both with her and Greg, but... I just don't see any way I can do that. Everyone's bustling around like crazy -- I went to the mall and I can't believe they have Christmas decorations up already. It's so insane! Carlie's been dropping hints about this pair of earrings she wants and if Bryan doesn't get them for her I think she just might kill him. I may have to take pity on the newest boytoy and take him out to show him them myself.

One thing to look forward to anyway -- break from school, and the food! OK... well, technically that's two things, but give me a break, it's been a long semester.

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Midterms - done! Lesson for tonight - done! Special song - written! Costume... uncertain? (Options! We have them! Carlie, don't yell!)

Ashley! Call me when you get back! We are party-hopping tonight after I get back from Brooklyn.

Why, yes, I might have eaten an entire bag of Twizzlers. Life is good with suuuuuugar!

( [Phone call to the number on the back of the Die Droge business card] )

My last midterm is tomorrow. I can already smell the sweet sweet scent of freedom. I think that I will sleep for all of Friday - make like the mummy they're trying to talk me into dressing up as.

Has anyone seen Ashley? I've stopped by her dorm a few times, and her car is gone, but she's not picking up her cell... Times like this... and you start to remember all those creepy stories about 'virgin sacrifices' at Halloween and... she wouldn't have just drove off without telling anyone, right? What if something's really wrong?

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Everything feels really weird today. It's like the world is holding its breath. I just don't know if what's gonna come is good... or really, really bad.

I can't seem to lose this freaking card. I told myself not to think about it until after midterms, but... myself is apparently a disobedient brat. Maybe I should just call and get it over with.

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Just what I need during midterms. A mysterious business card with an unknown number on the back. Thank you, Universe. Clearly, I did not have enough on my mind. Now I must sit here with it staring at me while I try to cram for Romans.

...Googling the name just brings up a hotel's website, but...

OK. No. Think about it after. After.
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Someone remind me why this double-major thing is a good idea again?

There's something in the air about this Halloween. I don't know what it is but everyone is excited about it. There's talk of all sorts of parties and the girls are planning to go Trick-or-Treating... I haven't even thought about my costume yet.

Midterms start up this week, so when I'm not drilling facts and figures into my head, we're putting together a countdown of scary movies until Halloween. We're starting with the classic Halloween and... man. I think Scream tomorrow night? I'm not even sure. 2+2 is still 4, right?

I am so looking forward to just sitting down and vegging out. I haven't really watched much horror since high school -- but 'tis the season!

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So much has happened... is it so wrong to want to get lost in terrors that aren't real? To scream and shout at stupid girls in the TV, and shiver at Jason, and just... see buckets and buckets of fake blood, and to just not care? Is it wrong to want to disconnect for a little while? ...I hope not.

I'm dead. Leave a message at the beep.

beeeeeeep.

Test is tomorrow. I feel like my eyes are going to pop out of my head and God help me if I can't remember the difference between myelin sheaths and dendrites. Nerves. Yes. The nervous system. Wondrous. Do I really need to know this shit crap to patch up hurt kids and hand out inoculations?

Gaaaaaaaaah, I'm so gonna die. Schwann cells, oligodendrocytes, and microglia. Who names these things!? I can't even spell them right!

Plus, I think Carlie's getting sick. I can't tell if it's a cold or a flu, because she's huddled up under the blankets drinking some foul smelling herbal thing and taking whiffs of Vicks. ...and I think that Melissa just brought her some vitamin drink that looks like swamp muck.

This is not the time to be distracted. But why do I feel like... like something really bad happened, like something is pressing down on me... and Jason got all weird today again... and... I don't know. I feel like I'm caught in anticipation but... like that hospital-waiting-room feeling. I've got to focus. Focus

I freaking hate anatomy and physiology.

[Locked Against Jason, Carlie, and Noisy Fathers]

So... not much of a date, then, yesterday. I mean... maybe it kinda was? He brought me a flower. A white rose. But then we met up with his cousin and... it was just like friends. And then... nothing.

And today was Brooklyn, and more of the same like nothing's changed and...

That's a good thing, right? That's what I wanted...

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Awesome time had in Brooklyn by all! A&P is still kicking my ass! Blues concert Thursday was in-cred-i-ble. Sweet, sweet bass and mmm-mmm-mmm, could that piano man play.

A&P Test on Tuesday. If I die before I wake...

[Locked from Jason, Carlie]
...I think I have a date.

Hey Dev!

What are you doing after your Thursday classes?